What shall it be?

MISTERY AHEAD

No wonder, I feel sort of insecure, thinking some years ahead. It seems to me, that anxiety for what it is to come is taking over the massive energy which anchored on me. It flows like a heavy rain and is not appearing to come to an end.
Things will change, everything changes, at every hour, every minute, who knows what there is to come?
I used to know. I used to know a lot in these matters. Now I simply can't define what's coming on.
Happenings appear a sort of blurred and form unbalanced expectations.
Some will say it is because my energy is not flowing softly, and I should do meditation.
Well...........I can't meditate..........I tried many times, no way!
It is not working, doesn't it?